My chest has been tight all
day; someone has been
sitting on my chest, my
throat has a great big ball
stuck halfway down;
my head is pounding
in a way I have never known
before -- the ibuprofen tablets,
small and brown and magic,
do nothing. All my old
remedies have failed me;
so I lie still on the couch,
my head heavy on his chest,
breathing too thickly.
Sometimes, I have woken
in the night unable to breathe
properly; once I called
the hospital, and they said
to come in at once -- it's
very dangerous, not being
able to breathe. I got off
the phone, but decided to
wait a little while, and see
if things got better. They
seemed to get better.
The light has changed.
I am staring out the window
at the sudden missing sunlight --
storm clouds hang heavy
above me; I realize
that the rain is coming,
finally. That's all. That
explains everything. At last,
it is coming, isn't it?
The rain.
*****
M.A. Mohanraj
June 16, 1999